[Part of her does know that he is doing his best while others continue to try to put her down a path of negative thoughts. It's kind of silly that she really does sleep better when someone who she values and trusts (like Yuwon, but Ishmael counts too) sleeps next to her. Maybe it puts her mind in focus on them and thier well being so she tries not to make them worry about herself.]
Here? Not really. Back at home... [When she got an update on happenings from LILITH... The events that happened in Wuthering Heights and especially T Corp. It's still clawing at her and she hates it every time it crosses her mind.]
It's a lot to explain. I dunno if I want to do it over the phone. [Or really at all, but...] I feel like if I try to talk it out with the others, they are going to think it's stupid.
[Others being Ishmael and Vergilius in this context. Talking someone she trusts that is not from The City is a little better despite it's still hard.]
[ back at home? there's a silent sort of confusion as he waits for her to continue. while he had experienced tidbits of her turbulent and incredibly stark past, he was sure whatever he had seen and experienced within those "dreams" were nothing like what actually went on inside of her.
he breathes in and exhales quietly, before he speaks. ] No one is going to think it's stupid. [ actually, he doesn't know if that's true, and the sudden way in which he stops talking probably says that, but he does rework it. ] If it's important to you, then I want to hear it.
You put up with a lot, and just because one person thinks it's trivial, it doesn't mean it is. [ he was on the flipside of that a lot, he thinks now. he can say this with conviction if just because his past self was such a selfish bastard... so it's easy for him in his present state to do better than that, at least. ]
You don't get it. If I was back home... If people knew about these feelings...
[Oh man the canon update conversation is going to a fun time for both of them. For now, her voice trails off as she slowly falls into coldness where she belongs. She could fall deeper into despair, but talking to Yuwon is like making her hold on the edge of a cliff. Clinging on to something before she loses herself.]
or that's what he concludes. a place where even the smallest inkling of feelings or tender emotions seeming to get the worst possible results. exposing vulnerabilities is never easy or simple in any world, whether it was south korea on earth, the tower, or the city. so he comprehends where she is coming from, but at the same time... ]
I can't be there right now, [ ... ]
But, let's finish this conversation when I'm back. I'll listen to you all night long if I have to. [ though, hopefully it isn't that long, yuwon thinks. jk, or am i. ] I want to hear it.
[ he says back, but there is something marginally softer in his voice. clearly it's his own form of a joke, even if it barely constitutes as one. but, then again, she probably knows he's not really a fun person by traditional standards, and so he gives a noise of comprehension. ] Yeah, go to bed. You'll feel a bit better when you're rested.
Come on~ Get some teleportation skills and you can sleep right next to me at any time.
[She also trying to form a joke to lighten the mood a little bit, but she does close her eyes and make her attempts to sleep. Yuwon could hear her toss and turn a few times, but eventually her breathing gets softer as time passes. Since he has seen her sleep before, it's that same sense of peace that Yuwon might be able to feel over the implant. She might not get fully better in the morning, but some sleep is always better than none.]
[ it would be convenient to have that skill, but he isn't sure he trusts any skills or abilities that aren't ones he's garnered from the tower. he also doesn't want to consider how it would impact his body. instead, all does is give a soft sigh, before letting the silence overtake the line. the noise of the sheets, her breathing, and eventually when she sleeps, he thinks, or maybe even says (he's too tired to confirm if this also wasn't just an extension of his sleep) a muted "good night" before cutting the line. ]
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Here? Not really. Back at home... [When she got an update on happenings from LILITH... The events that happened in Wuthering Heights and especially T Corp. It's still clawing at her and she hates it every time it crosses her mind.]
It's a lot to explain. I dunno if I want to do it over the phone. [Or really at all, but...] I feel like if I try to talk it out with the others, they are going to think it's stupid.
[Others being Ishmael and Vergilius in this context. Talking someone she trusts that is not from The City is a little better despite it's still hard.]
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he breathes in and exhales quietly, before he speaks. ] No one is going to think it's stupid. [ actually, he doesn't know if that's true, and the sudden way in which he stops talking probably says that, but he does rework it. ] If it's important to you, then I want to hear it.
You put up with a lot, and just because one person thinks it's trivial, it doesn't mean it is. [ he was on the flipside of that a lot, he thinks now. he can say this with conviction if just because his past self was such a selfish bastard... so it's easy for him in his present state to do better than that, at least. ]
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[Oh man the canon update conversation is going to a fun time for both of them. For now, her voice trails off as she slowly falls into coldness where she belongs. She could fall deeper into despair, but talking to Yuwon is like making her hold on the edge of a cliff. Clinging on to something before she loses herself.]
I wish you were here. [In person.]
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or that's what he concludes. a place where even the smallest inkling of feelings or tender emotions seeming to get the worst possible results. exposing vulnerabilities is never easy or simple in any world, whether it was south korea on earth, the tower, or the city. so he comprehends where she is coming from, but at the same time... ]
I can't be there right now, [ ... ]
But, let's finish this conversation when I'm back. I'll listen to you all night long if I have to. [ though, hopefully it isn't that long, yuwon thinks. jk, or am i. ] I want to hear it.
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[She wants a lot because she had barely anything. And the things she has right now, she is scared of losing it.]
If you say so... I'll try. It hurts, but I will give it a shot.
[The hurt/comfort for thier growths, beej...]
I'll try to sleep now. Okay?
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[ he says back, but there is something marginally softer in his voice. clearly it's his own form of a joke, even if it barely constitutes as one. but, then again, she probably knows he's not really a fun person by traditional standards, and so he gives a noise of comprehension. ] Yeah, go to bed. You'll feel a bit better when you're rested.
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[She also trying to form a joke to lighten the mood a little bit, but she does close her eyes and make her attempts to sleep. Yuwon could hear her toss and turn a few times, but eventually her breathing gets softer as time passes. Since he has seen her sleep before, it's that same sense of peace that Yuwon might be able to feel over the implant. She might not get fully better in the morning, but some sleep is always better than none.]
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